What happen? / 11:03 AM

What happen....juz when i tot my intention was good....it turn out to be a bad one....i feel extremely terrible.....why is it that juz want to present the strong side of me when i see u ? where is the weak side of me..... i cried....but its onli when i m not with u .....why is it thats the case.....

why are you so cruel... u gave mi hope yet took away my hope without even considering abt how i will feel....one day u were telling mi that u haf extended my contract for another week.....juz the day after u took away my extended contract...and not onli u took away my extended u oso took away my current contract....how can u do that? where is all the promise that u haf given me? Dun i even haf the right to get angry when u dun wan to meet? juz when i was abt to get angry u juz say forget abt the 1 week....juz be frens....then hu m i to u during dis 1 week...i dun even haf the say or rights to get angry?

Haiz....u r in control of everything...then what abt me? Can you juz spare a tot for me....why is it that all of u are the same....i m asking for too much....why guyz juz like to lie..... can i juz choose somthing that i want....why is it that everyone is depriving everthing that i want.....why is it that i cant even choose something that i want....why i m always doin something that i do not like....

right from the start...i nv take it as a game...IT IS NEVER A GAME!!!! DUN TAKE ME AS A PLAYER IN THE GAME.....you really make mi feel that i m not worthy of anything...

even if u were to juz treat mi as a fren is this the way u should treat mi?

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

What happen? / 11:03 AM

What happen....juz when i tot my intention was good....it turn out to be a bad one....i feel extremely terrible.....why is it that juz want to present the strong side of me when i see u ? where is the weak side of me..... i cried....but its onli when i m not with u .....why is it thats the case.....

why are you so cruel... u gave mi hope yet took away my hope without even considering abt how i will feel....one day u were telling mi that u haf extended my contract for another week.....juz the day after u took away my extended contract...and not onli u took away my extended u oso took away my current contract....how can u do that? where is all the promise that u haf given me? Dun i even haf the right to get angry when u dun wan to meet? juz when i was abt to get angry u juz say forget abt the 1 week....juz be frens....then hu m i to u during dis 1 week...i dun even haf the say or rights to get angry?

Haiz....u r in control of everything...then what abt me? Can you juz spare a tot for me....why is it that all of u are the same....i m asking for too much....why guyz juz like to lie..... can i juz choose somthing that i want....why is it that everyone is depriving everthing that i want.....why is it that i cant even choose something that i want....why i m always doin something that i do not like....

right from the start...i nv take it as a game...IT IS NEVER A GAME!!!! DUN TAKE ME AS A PLAYER IN THE GAME.....you really make mi feel that i m not worthy of anything...

even if u were to juz treat mi as a fren is this the way u should treat mi?