/ 9:20 AM

Eating snake at home for today....goin back to office later to do the test that i was asked to do long time ago....now being forced to do it...no choice but to go le...

In life...there are many things that we dun understand isnt it? one thing i dun understand is...why is that human thoughts are always so difficult to understand.....person whom i think is trustable....are they? person whom i think is one hu is not worth my trust turn out to be someone whom will actually keep ur secrets for u.....weird huh.....why is it that in life its always the unexpected that happens....where are all the expected??

I am really so tired of my life.....somehow or rather i gave someone this feeling that i m always doin something on intention....but i m not....juz that i do not have the choice but to use his laptop..and the worse thing is i actually forgot to bring home the main cause of this incident....isnt it worse....the tot of him thinking that i m doin it on intention is even more true?

I am not someone hu is a man of word.....i keep telling myself not to appear infront of them anymore....but i juz cant help to think of goin there during my free time....i feel so comfortable there.....no one is there to disturb mi....but why is that i have created so many things there? i should not hav told anyone abt it in the first place....i regreted hell lots....i guess its time i really keep a distance away from them....away from everyone....

I have to grow up.....but i guess its not the correct time for mi to really think of what i wan my life to be .....I m being tied down to do something i dun like.....i dun haf a choice....

I guess i have made up my mind on how i m goin to plan my life to be....i m goin to make my negative asset to become positive...hopefully my parents will be able to help mi fullfill this....once i hav enuff positive i will leave dis country to look for my cousin in boston....stay there for the longest time i can....and then come back..hopefully with a new me..really feel so dishearten with the people here.....

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 9:20 AM

Eating snake at home for today....goin back to office later to do the test that i was asked to do long time ago....now being forced to do it...no choice but to go le...

In life...there are many things that we dun understand isnt it? one thing i dun understand is...why is that human thoughts are always so difficult to understand.....person whom i think is trustable....are they? person whom i think is one hu is not worth my trust turn out to be someone whom will actually keep ur secrets for u.....weird huh.....why is it that in life its always the unexpected that happens....where are all the expected??

I am really so tired of my life.....somehow or rather i gave someone this feeling that i m always doin something on intention....but i m not....juz that i do not have the choice but to use his laptop..and the worse thing is i actually forgot to bring home the main cause of this incident....isnt it worse....the tot of him thinking that i m doin it on intention is even more true?

I am not someone hu is a man of word.....i keep telling myself not to appear infront of them anymore....but i juz cant help to think of goin there during my free time....i feel so comfortable there.....no one is there to disturb mi....but why is that i have created so many things there? i should not hav told anyone abt it in the first place....i regreted hell lots....i guess its time i really keep a distance away from them....away from everyone....

I have to grow up.....but i guess its not the correct time for mi to really think of what i wan my life to be .....I m being tied down to do something i dun like.....i dun haf a choice....

I guess i have made up my mind on how i m goin to plan my life to be....i m goin to make my negative asset to become positive...hopefully my parents will be able to help mi fullfill this....once i hav enuff positive i will leave dis country to look for my cousin in boston....stay there for the longest time i can....and then come back..hopefully with a new me..really feel so dishearten with the people here.....