Yu Sheng..(1st mar) / 9:35 AM

I had 2 yu sheng a day... 1st one with BCRS colleagues...2nd with secondary school frens... one on the afternoon the other at nite..took some pics but couldnt get it uploaded...the pic shows the mess we have created after the yu sheng...

the impression of lou yu sheng was to say all the good things...but with my bcrs colleagues they were rather quiet...hmm....the yu sheng at nite with sec sch frens was a noisy one...lol....6 tigers to gobble down the yu sheng...janice n i bought the wrong size...but thats the only available size there...its too big that everyone was pushing around the yu sheng as was told by my mom that its a must to finish it... hope everyone enjoyed themseleves

after the yu sheng..janice and michelle hide themself in my room...while pei ting, colin and chia feng sat in the living room...got a video of it..i woder if i can get it uploaded here too...shall try it out later

Back to something that i do not wish to face is to work alone...face the outside... Rejected a few offers....now i got another offer which is to work in IBM. Heard that its frm x-series that needed ppl...so asked some qns from a fren hu is an intern at x-series....he told mi alot....everything seems nice...but the onli thing is that it sounds to me that the ppl there arent so friendly which makes mi feel rather fearful...which is oso my main reason for not wanting to face a new enviornment.. sigh...

Early in the morning i woke up...i told myself for the year 2007 i wan to become an independant person... its seems that for the past 21 years of life i have been well protected...stories start frm pri 1.... everyone is goin to school happily except for mi...i head to sch crying....1st day of sch...daddy brought mi to sch...i just couldnt let him off my sight...the moment he is out of my sight i will start crying....teachers pacify me into the class...and my dad tot of sneaking off ... guess what...i ran out of the classroom crying and chasing after my daddy's car....upon seeing me behind he came down to tell mi that aunty(maid working for us at tat time) is waiting for me there...i dun believe him and insist that he bring me to aunty and then allow him to leave the sch.. terrible rite...

Start of secondary... becoz i shifted hse...thus sch was situated near my place...and therefore the onli few frens hu got into the same sch as mi was onli like 3(including myself) but we are nt close so 1st day of school....i went alone....hmm...sounds great rite...but guess what....everyone else was singing the national anthem at the basketball court while i got myself inside the toilet...too nervous....lousy stomach..always back mi out when ever i m afraid.....happens frequently during exams.....

then path moves on to poly life.... choosing of courses....delibrately got all my choices the same...praying hard that i will get into the same course as daryl...indeed..i got in the same course as daryl....but nothing is always too good....we are in a totally different class...sad case...upon hearing that we are in the same class...my tears juz uncontrollably roll down my cheeks...sad case right....18 years old and yet...crying so easily....but that is not what i wan...tears juz roll down easily...

3rd year of poly....daryl went for attachment...i got to go to school all by myself...and thanks god..i get 2 noe 2 great frens....hui ling and ming rui....they accompanied me through the final year of poly...really hope that our frenship wun end upon the end of our poly life....true frens are hard to find esp when we get older.....during our attachment we still met out quite a few times....but after attachment its been a month already....yet haben get to meet out yet.... shall we arrange a day to meet out???....

Paths of my life have been accompanied by lots of people.....really thanks for parents for making me so depandent on them....i guess its really time for me to learn to be indepandent...n not rely on them anymore...haiz....but everytime i will hav dis tot of wanting to be indepandent...and the next moment back out again...feeling so fearful.....argh!!!!

The hands of 6 tigers!! lol...

Finally got the picture up....the onli person using the left hand is me...coz i m using my right hand to take a picture...then in clockwise direction will be janice will the gold braclet on her hand...beside janice will be pei ting..then chia feng...then colin...and lastly michelle and back to me...hee....

hmm...no idea how i can get the video up...so shall give the video a miss....thats all for today..bye...

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

Yu Sheng..(1st mar) / 9:35 AM

I had 2 yu sheng a day... 1st one with BCRS colleagues...2nd with secondary school frens... one on the afternoon the other at nite..took some pics but couldnt get it uploaded...the pic shows the mess we have created after the yu sheng...

the impression of lou yu sheng was to say all the good things...but with my bcrs colleagues they were rather quiet...hmm....the yu sheng at nite with sec sch frens was a noisy one...lol....6 tigers to gobble down the yu sheng...janice n i bought the wrong size...but thats the only available size there...its too big that everyone was pushing around the yu sheng as was told by my mom that its a must to finish it... hope everyone enjoyed themseleves

after the yu sheng..janice and michelle hide themself in my room...while pei ting, colin and chia feng sat in the living room...got a video of it..i woder if i can get it uploaded here too...shall try it out later

Back to something that i do not wish to face is to work alone...face the outside... Rejected a few offers....now i got another offer which is to work in IBM. Heard that its frm x-series that needed ppl...so asked some qns from a fren hu is an intern at x-series....he told mi alot....everything seems nice...but the onli thing is that it sounds to me that the ppl there arent so friendly which makes mi feel rather fearful...which is oso my main reason for not wanting to face a new enviornment.. sigh...

Early in the morning i woke up...i told myself for the year 2007 i wan to become an independant person... its seems that for the past 21 years of life i have been well protected...stories start frm pri 1.... everyone is goin to school happily except for mi...i head to sch crying....1st day of sch...daddy brought mi to sch...i just couldnt let him off my sight...the moment he is out of my sight i will start crying....teachers pacify me into the class...and my dad tot of sneaking off ... guess what...i ran out of the classroom crying and chasing after my daddy's car....upon seeing me behind he came down to tell mi that aunty(maid working for us at tat time) is waiting for me there...i dun believe him and insist that he bring me to aunty and then allow him to leave the sch.. terrible rite...

Start of secondary... becoz i shifted hse...thus sch was situated near my place...and therefore the onli few frens hu got into the same sch as mi was onli like 3(including myself) but we are nt close so 1st day of school....i went alone....hmm...sounds great rite...but guess what....everyone else was singing the national anthem at the basketball court while i got myself inside the toilet...too nervous....lousy stomach..always back mi out when ever i m afraid.....happens frequently during exams.....

then path moves on to poly life.... choosing of courses....delibrately got all my choices the same...praying hard that i will get into the same course as daryl...indeed..i got in the same course as daryl....but nothing is always too good....we are in a totally different class...sad case...upon hearing that we are in the same class...my tears juz uncontrollably roll down my cheeks...sad case right....18 years old and yet...crying so easily....but that is not what i wan...tears juz roll down easily...

3rd year of poly....daryl went for attachment...i got to go to school all by myself...and thanks god..i get 2 noe 2 great frens....hui ling and ming rui....they accompanied me through the final year of poly...really hope that our frenship wun end upon the end of our poly life....true frens are hard to find esp when we get older.....during our attachment we still met out quite a few times....but after attachment its been a month already....yet haben get to meet out yet.... shall we arrange a day to meet out???....

Paths of my life have been accompanied by lots of people.....really thanks for parents for making me so depandent on them....i guess its really time for me to learn to be indepandent...n not rely on them anymore...haiz....but everytime i will hav dis tot of wanting to be indepandent...and the next moment back out again...feeling so fearful.....argh!!!!

The hands of 6 tigers!! lol...

Finally got the picture up....the onli person using the left hand is me...coz i m using my right hand to take a picture...then in clockwise direction will be janice will the gold braclet on her hand...beside janice will be pei ting..then chia feng...then colin...and lastly michelle and back to me...hee....

hmm...no idea how i can get the video up...so shall give the video a miss....thats all for today..bye...